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Saturday, 16 May 2009

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    CSI: NY - The Fourth Season
    By Gary Sinise, Melina Kanakaredes, Carmine Giovinazzo, Anna Belknap, Hill Harper
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    Day One.

    I don't quite know how to start this off but I guess I just did. Life is amazing yet at the same time, when you really think about it, its quite the contrary. You don't know when everything will be lost, or even worse, when it'll end. I have been from hell and back, trust me, as time goes by, you'll wonder if I am actually living a soap opera or what not. But time will tell. Today, I'm in such a state of frustration. I feel as if I am stuck between two cars, crushed in between the two, and no matter how hard I try to release myself, I am not able to. I hate the fact that I am almost there, but I've been there for awhile now, yet no one seems to notice. No one understands, and I don't want or trust anyone to understand, which I acknowledge is one of my (possibly fatal) flaws in life. (NOTE: My name is not Amelia, it is a name I will go by while using Xanga.) I can see the finish line, I am almost in my last step. Graduation, College, Adulthood, London, Europe....its all in the reach of my hand. Just one more year, one more year, but with all the hopes and dreams I have in that freedom, they all come rushing down as I am almost turning legal here. Everyone is holding me back from flying. They don't want me to fly, don't want to let go. I guess being a teen makes me want to fly even more than actually but who knows. I know what I have to do, the hard work I will need to accomplish, and the obstacles I will have to face, but no one knows, I've faced and dealt with more than half of those issues. This is just an intro, you perhaps are confused as to what I am writing right now, or as to my message, yet if you tune in, and subscribe, and most of all comment, I swear it'll be your worth wild.
    Yours always,
    Amelia
  • Hi everyone! I'm just starting on Xanga, and if you'd be a sweetheart and drop by and leave me a comment, I'll be sure to return the love. Thanks.